As I silently judge my peers on Facebook I notice that the majority of my friends not in sobriety are miserable, or at least seem to be miserable judging by their Facebook statuses. I start thinking to myself man, I wish everyone could experience the joys of sobriety. I wish everyone could be rocketed into this 4th dimension of existence. To feel God's presence in all aspects of life is a feeling that's indescribable.
Today I have a way to conquer all of my problems. I have found a solution. I have found faith that can get me through anything. But, then I remember us alcoholics/addicts are given this gift because of the Hell we went through. I have accepted my past. Even though I am not proud of the majority of it I understand I had to experience that torture and feel that pain so I could see where substances lead. I am a firm believer that until you are ready and you accept your bottom you're not going to be able to put your all into this program. And, as they say "half measures avail us nothing." So, as much as I wish everyone could have this solution and experience this way of life, I realize that in order to achieve this serenity they would have had to travel through Hell as we all did; and I wish that upon no one. Today I am grateful for my trials and tribulations and am able to look upon this disease of addiction as a blessing.
Thank God for struggles.
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